No, not the Motley Crue tune but something else that has me extremely disappointed. Recently, I found myself somewhat stabbed in the back and I'm not going to mention names because I am hoping for a change in these individuals behaviors. I really hate it when someone who warms up to me, to then later, show tendencies of the 2 faced way of doing business that I saw while living in Arkansas and thus, the same old situation. I left Arkansas because I was tired of people saying nice things to my face, only to later find out from a leak in their little loop of what was said about me. for me, what you see is what you get. If I have a problem in any way, shape or form with someone, it WILL come out and not behind their back. I am so sick of this kind of mentality that I am currently looking elsewhere to reside as clearly my way is not the way here. Perhaps I am blowing this out of proportion or perhaps in my hopes that S.W. Missouri would be different, that I was conveniently blind. Either way, I have lost some respect for these individuals and it really saddens me. I guess I could hope that maybe that these individuals will see this and make an about face in their ways, but I seriously doubt it. This has me so frustrated, angry, and disheartened that I just want to bite a railroad spike in half. For someone to have such clout and to be thought of as a great persons within their realm, makes this even worse. I hate being treated like some dolt, as I have many professors who will take exception to that. I can't remember the last time I was out smarted by these types of individuals, but I can say that I was out dumbed many times.
For what it's worth, I know that people are just people and changing my location won't change much for the situation, but then again, it probably will. I lived in the Pacific Northwest area for a while and this kind of mentality just does not exist there. So far, the feelers are out and I am researching my options.
This is just a very unorganized rant, I just wish that those who are currently on my shit list will quickly get themselves off if only they would read this and take it seriously. I believe that if I shit in my right hand and wished for what I want in the left, that I am sure which hand will get filled first. I will not be testing this theory.