Sunday, January 4, 2009

New Year Already Starting Off Messed Up

I just learned a few days ago something that has totally turned my world a bit upside down and it has left me feeling a bit off my game. This news strikes not only close to home, but right up in my face and it has me completely absorbed. All I can say is that I totally didn't see this coming and it's really messed up. I don't know when my next post will be, but hopefully it will be soon. I will try to get around and make some sort of a presence known, but for now, I just don't feel the same blogger self. I am going to try to shrug this off and get back, I just don't know when that will be. If there is anyone who feels like I've been ignoring them, I apologize as I will hope to rectify this soon.

Thanks for your understanding.

27 comments:

JennyLu said...

I hope everything is OK. If you need a pal, please email me and I will be more then happy to listen (or read) ~Hugs~ Jenn

Jack said...

Sorry to hear. Come back soon.

Caspar608 said...

I've been thrown off balance several times in my life. I bounce back faster each and every time.

Sending lots of good stuff your way.....

Everything is going to be OK.

Kim said...

Yeah...sending happy thoughts to you as well.

California Girl said...

CDM - I will always keep good thoughts going your way and hope you come through this time without without too many scars. I will miss you while you're gone and look forward to seeing you again soon. If you need anything, email and I will be there. Be well my friend.

The Short (dis)Order Cook said...

big hugs. Hope whatever the situation is clears up soon. I don't think anyone is going to force you to post.

Whiner Girl said...

You'll be missed. Hope everything works out ...

JL said...

Hang in there, kiddo. If I sent one of those horrible pictures of a kitten hanging onto a ledge, would it help?

Michelle said...

Life always throws you a crap ball every now and again. We have all had our share. But it always get better. What ever happened it soon will pass.

dr sardonicus said...

We're here for you. Stay strong. You are in my thoughts.

Дж. Хьюз said...

CDM, here's hoping that you get the best of whatever is getting you down. We're doing pretty well here - Lisa's docs are encouraging and her chemo starts very soon - and planning on a happier 2009. We wish you the same!

It's Me said...

CDMMMMMMMmm............geez, I certainly hope everything works out for you. I'm worried about you. Take care and I'm praying for ya.

Caspar608 said...

CDM, do what your girl Cas does...

get in the ring and knock it the fuck to the mat. You can DO IT.

If I can DO IT, raising three kids alone, bobbing and weaving through the shitstorm life throws in my direction, you can DO IT too.

Adopt the I WILL NOT LOSE philosophy. It changes your body chemistry, it makes you feel invincible, unstoppable, untouchable.

I got your back baby!

clipper said...

Hey CDM, if ya are as strong as I think you are, pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and when life knocks ya down, slap it back and stand tall. Life is a shit sandwich, and we all have to take a bite now and again. Just spit it out and wait for the cookie for dessert. It is coming.

We all get through life one day at a time. It makes it bearable and less intimidating. Hang in there my friend. It is all about hills and valleys. Today you are in a valley, but tomorrow you will be looking over your shoulder and standing on top of the world again.

Hey, if ya believe in the power of God, just remember if "he brings ya to it, he will bring ya through it". If you don't believe in God, just hang on because HE probably still believes in YOU. My sympathy and my best to you my friend. You are in my thoughts and my wishes are for you to be back on top of your game very soon.

Jennster said...

Hey CDM, Just stopping in again to check and see that your doing ok. Wanted to let you know that your in my thoughts. Hang in there buddy!

clipper said...

Me too CDM. We are all concerned about ya, and wishing you all the best my friend. Hang in and keep your chin up man. You are in our thoughts and you have a lot of friends that support you and care.

You are in our thoughts buddy.

Mary said...

I hope things are better for you soonest. Miss your posts/comments a lot.

clipper said...

Just a word to let ya know that you are still in my thoughts and prayers. I gotta tell ya, I have hit rough weather many times in my journey through life my friend. The clouds will part, and the sun will shine again. I hate it that you are "off your game" and troubled. We miss ya CDM. Hang in there!

Jason said...

I hope things get better quickly.

Caspar608 said...

aye, aye, aye YOU!!!!!!!

GET IT TOGETHER CDM!!!!

I need some intellectual comic relief reading about your shenanigans!!!

Brother, where art thou!!!!!!!

It's Me said...

I'm worried about ya.

Kim said...

Hey everyone,

Just wanted to post and let you all know that CDM is ok, he's just busy now...school started again this week so he's been dealing with that. As a matter of fact, I'm talking to him on the phone as I'm typing this and he sounds pretty good. :-) Anyway...he'll be back...he's ok. :-)

Mary said...

THANK GOD!

Complaint Department Manager said...

Everyone, I do thank you for your thoughts. It's just recently something VERY out of the ordinary has happened and it is an accumulation of 15 years of Jerry Springer type shit that came to a head, so to speak, and at the time, I wasn't able to really handle it very well. This really took me off my game and had me searching for answers and with the help of a old friend, who I hadn't talked to in years, help me at least make it more bearable.

Again, I'm sorry if I was giving anyone here a bit of a scare or something, but as Kim is apprised of the situation, but things are better now and they weren't life threatening or anything close to being such, just a really messed up situation getting worse.

One more time, thanks for your understanding here.

clipper said...

Your life has included a Jerry Springer like episode, and mine has been a badly written country western song. Life is a kick in the ass my friend, but we manage to get through it day by day. We don't get any "do overs" so we simply accept the past as being IN the past, and try to leave it there. I have always been told to "look back but do not stare". I take it to mean that we learn from adversity in our past, and use that rearward vision only as a tool to prevent repetition. Guilt or regret has no useful purpose in life other than to remind us not to repeat our mistakes. We all grow smarter and mature as we age.

Good to hear that you are okay. Hang in there,time will heal. We missed ya and worried about ya. We all have times when we have to put the past in proper perspective and move on to looking forward to tomorrow. Old friends or new friends, you have LOTS of friends and we are ALL here for ya dude. Welcome back.

Complaint Department Manager said...

Clipper, I can honestly say, guilt and/or regret ain't part of the equation here, far from it. The only left I can really say about this situation(at further risk of being cryptic) is that I lost something extremely precious to me some 13 years ago and I never really got over it. What happened on New Year's Eve was just a further twisting of the knife and finding out that something else had been taken from me. This was an extremely deflating thing that happened. I have the help of a friend in Arizona that is being a big help right now.

Besides, guilt is extremely temporary with me and I regret ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. Why? Because if I learn something from it, then what is to regret? If I don't learn anything by something, then I regret it.

Again, I appreciate the well wishes, it's all good.

Jennster said...

Glad to have you back CDM